Friday, January 14, 2011


I had planned on linking up to Wife of Sailor's Friday Fill-in, but I don't have it in me today to even answer five questions. I am just done. 

Everything is falling apart: the cars, the house, the kids and me. I know that is Murphy's Law 101 for MilSpouses - they deploy and all hell breaks loose. I expected it, mentally prepared myself for it, but I am not sure how much more I can handle. 

My suburban started this week off by telling me it was done too. After three days and $800, they are telling me that it needs another $1500 to $2000 to fix my brake system. Do they still pay to give blood? 

The house just needs to be bulldozed. In fact, I dream about that on a regular basis. The hot water to the kitchen sink has slowed to a trickle, the fridge door won't shut half the time and the flooring that Soldierboy installed is coming up in the kitchen. Not to mention that the clutter is ankle deep and I am merely picking up paths through the front rooms. I am pretty sure we won't be having anyone over for the duration of the deployment. 

My 3-year-old has been screaming for 2 days. I think she is done too. She hasn't slept in her own bed since September and I am not sure how that will play out when R&R happens. I may have to check myself into a hotel and let the Soldier spend two weeks with his kids. I know I need to get her back into a routine and work on the fit thing, but I can't get after her for doing exactly what I want to do -  I want to scream too.

I am sick. Not just a cold, give me tea and chicken noodle soup sick. Really sick and seeing doctors two or three days a week. I have seen so many specialists over the past three months that I don't even remember them. I am sure I glow in the dark after all the MRIs and x-rays and I now have my own personal pharmacy in my bathroom. Have I ever mentioned how much I dislike doctors? 

I am trying to find the good things in all of this. Yes, I am thankful that we have a house, even if it isn't ever going to be clean again. I am thankful that Tricare is working in my favor (shocking isn't it?). I am even thankful that we have been living on Army pay since April, because it means we are too poor to have to itemize our taxes (I hate doing taxes). 

I just have reached my breaking point...

So what do you do when you are done?

Link up at Flip Flops & Combat Boots for this week's Roundup.

Love & TGIF,



  1. Oh Athena! I am so sorry. Seek the Lord my friend. He is your only help in time of need. Praying for you

  2. ((hugs)) I really wish I could help. Praying for you!

  3. AthenaLee,
    Praying for you to have strength and to feel well.
    Love ya,

  4. I'm so sorry you were feeling rotten last week. But I'm so glad you're feeling better now. Yes, the Murphy's Law of deployments is awful and cruel, but we all manage to kick it's butt every now and then. Hang in there!